Alone

Do not know why. But I do not think I've had any good friends. I feel very frustrated that I think living alone is better. I learned how to live alone. It is better. This is probably a life test from Him. I'm strong and I can deal with it alone. Thank you for the past, friend.

Dewasa

When I grow older, I learn a lot of things around the world. Family, friends, and anyone else. I learned to become mature. I learned how to stay silent no matter what the problem is. Learn to let go and forget. Why? No one can trust you wholeheartedly. I learned to recognize everyone, because I've been betrayed. The empty space and opportunity I meet with knowing everyone near me. It does not matter if I'm still clever to hide it. I learned how to recognize the characters of others. I learned how to understand their attitude and behavior. Why? Maybe I want them to understand who I am. I learned how to stay respectful of someone. Again, take care of your heart. It is very important. I learned how to withstand every rage because I knew I was finally sad. I learned to move and live alone because I know I'll be alone too. I'm trying to learn independently because I'm trying not to make people worry. I learned to be a faithful person is important. Because you'll know who's always on your side when you're in trouble. I learned how to help everyone as long as they want to help it in the heart. I'm hoping that may God ease everything, 

18 sep 15

i miss you for these past days till it makes me always want to think bout you. thinking about you never makes me bored. i want to hold your hand but i know you don't even want it. i wanna look into your eyes deeply while saying 'i miss you' but your eyes never staring at me anymore. i keep all these missing of you alone until tears dripping away in the late of night. too much of throwing away but i can't do it. i wanna say 'i love you so much' everyday in front of you but i can't able to do it cuz u refusing date on me like before.